It’s oh so quiet… shhh shhh shhh…. it’s oh so still, you’re all alone… and so peaceful…
Ha ha… Bjork you know me too well… if you ever want to know the vacillation of my love life, just watch this video.
Well, I happen to be in the quiet time right now. Quiet time for me means… a lot of alone time, yoga, meditation… no classes, no bouncing around. I’m actually home more days a week than out. Sure there’s a few holiday parties here and there, but I’m kind of going hermit on the world- on purpose.
I think people tend to hibernate anyway in the winter- bundle up, hang in with the fam. Nights are longer, days are shorter. For me, it’s all about getting warm, reading, watching movies, getting myself in the right mental space before I kick off another new year. Thanking myself for the experiences I’ve had, visualizing the experiences I want to have. Just being in marination mode.
I had a friend ask me the other day if I was lonely. I think loneliness is a state of mind. I don’t ever see myself as lonely, I see myself as selfish more than anything. Because I live alone, I get to do what I want whenever I want. And there are times all I want to be, is just with me. Whether with a glass of wine, a bath, a book, a lit candle and music (tonight it was Disney tunes, laundry and talking to an newly engaged friend!) I honestly love my “lonely” time.
I know at some point, one day, all this ‘lonesome’ self is going to be shared with another or others… and while I look forward to that chapter, I want to hang onto this one as long as I can. If I haven’t seen you much lately, I’m hibernating. In a couple of weeks, I will be in the throes of an Australian summer, so I’m relishing my chilly California beach winter on my own. I’m not booked every night of the week, I’m taking things slowly, just enjoying and reflecting during these last few weeks of the year.
If you get a chance at all, make time for yourself. Have the house to yourself one afternoon. Go get a massage, go to the library or a coffee shop on your own- even if just for 30 minutes. It kind of brings you back to center; it’s like a mini-reset button. It’s nice to remember who you are amidst the holiday and family hubbub. It’s good for you! You don’t have to live alone like I do, but it’s always good to remember that you are still you in this crazy people-filled world. 🙂